How did I get here?
Like many other moms, I felt like I needed a break. I had a very active 9 year old and a 1 1/2 year old who never left my side since birth. I went to have lunch with some old friends. After having some drinks I made the worst decision of my life. I drove home. I never made it home that night and I took someone’s mom, daughter and sisters life in the process of my dumb decision. Two children don’t have their mother, a mom and dad don’t have a daughter and a brother lost his sister all from a split second bad decision that I made. I was sentenced to 30 years of probation and 11 years incarceration but the worst part to me isn’t the prison sentence itself. It’s knowing that for the rest of my like I will wake up with guilt and shame, knowing I took someone’s life who was Innocent, to know two kids will always have a part of their heart missing because of me. Prison isn’t easy; Missing my life at home, my kids and my family is hard but living with the guilt and pain I have from taking someone’s life is a life sentence in itself. I pray that my testimony will be shared one day so that people will think twice before getting behind the wheel. It can happen to anyone after only one drink and it shouldn’t be taken lightly. You never know whose life you will ruin all because of one selfish decision.
4 days before everything changed
June 10 2022
Strength. You don’t know how much you have of it until it’s all you have left.
I’m terrified for more reasons than I can list out on a social media app. I have more questions & list of things to do than I can even begin to write down. I have more worries then I know what to do with. BUT let me tell you, I feel a weird sense of peace, I know that sounds crazy after saying all of the other things, I think you can still feel scared, anxious & overwhelmed but also at peace that all of those things you are feeling will be okay. God does that to you, he gives you peace when you give it all to him. Now, don’t get me wrong, I still sit down some days & wonder why, I’m still human BUT I’m a child of God & this is my story.. a story GOD has written just for me , and to me that’s beautiful. He picked ME to do something in this world that is going to change peoples lives and that’s enough for me to go okay God here’s my fears, my doubts & my anxiety, you’ve got it & I’ll just do as you want me to do so that I feel at PEACE.
“I know there's gonna be some brighter days
I swear that love will find you in your pain. I feel it in me like the beating of life in my veins. I know there's gonna be some brighter days.”
